This post comes to you after an extended Thanksgiving break with my little. Thanks to an atypical blizzard, I got an extra two days with Olive. Let’s just say, the snow day call comes with different feelings when you are a stay at home mom vs being a teacher.
I wish I had kept a daily log. Something to the effect of…
Day 1: Olive and I went to the zoo with friends. The girls mostly ate snacks while the animals stayed inside where it was warm.
Day 2: Olive skipped nap while Thanksgiving party hopping. She became delirious at night and began sharing any and every story she could think of. Please let this child sleep in.
Day 3: She did not sleep in. Up at 6:05. I have to get her out of the house. No library program, what am I going to do?
Day 4: Olive has decided she needs a new way to get my attention: Hey mommy, tlick, tlick, tlick (you know, the noise you make when calling an animal over). She insists on using it anytime she wants me.
Skip ahead… Evening of Day 6: Thank goodness we have dance class. We are out of the house, when I get the text, call and email: no school again tomorrow. Lord be with me.
Day 7: Olive has a playdate at our house. She pouts because her friend turned her bedroom light on, not her.
Can you relate? I love her crazy big; but, in those moments, I coveted my alone time. And now as I sit here in reflection while she is at school, I wish I had used our time together more meaningfully.
It’s not that we didn’t have memorable moments; I guess I just wish I had been more present. Let go of the mental to do list. Let go of impatience with Olive’s emotional growth (I feel like that’s a better way to word breakdowns and fit throwing). Let go of personal expectations that I was not fulfilling. Smiled more. Laughed more. Played more. Listened more.
Going into the Christmas season, future breaks and probable snow days, my hope is to make sure Olive and all others (friends and family) know that I enjoy their company. To laugh, smile, play and listen.
I wasn’t quite sure where I was going when I began this post. But, I think I will wrap it up here and leave you with one more thought. My posts are personal reflections. Thoughts I hope others can relate to. Thoughts others can say me too, you’re not crazy Jenny. Or vice versa. I am humbled that you would be interested in reading my musings. And I hope this leaves you well.
God is good.